I wanted to call and tell her how it had all turned out. We went out to the street on that bright morning to see a fire high up in the distance. And so she meets Sooki Raphael, Hanks' assistant. There was no reason for her to tell me this. I was starting to understand that what she needed might have been color rather than conversation, breath rather than words. She hadnt seen it happen. The only other option was to go with stickers which could shift or come off in the shower. Every time her mother turned around, Sooki was gone.. And anyway, UCLA had suspended its plans to start the clinical trial for recurrent pancreatic cancer. What with all the news of this new virus they thought there was a good chance people werent going to show up. We have some picnic tables outside the police station, the officer said. She had set up her life in the basement of our house, a place we never went. You okay? Sooki asked. She could be a nun. Sister Nena picked up a piece of bread and swiped it through the olive oil in the saucer between us. Sooki had come to our house thinking shed be staying with someone who was gone half the time and busy the other half of the time. PATCHETT: Yes. "Let's go back to the hotel. She shook her head, scrolling. Dear gave way to Dearest. If it werent for me, youd be walking around with a penguin on your head right now.. It would take nothing for her to blow away. But of course I was the one who took everything. My continuous and varied relationship with exercise was an inheritance from my father. I was having trouble with my own volume now. She painted her granddaughter striding through a field of her own imagination, she painted herself wearing a mask, she painted me walking down our street with such vividness that I realized I had never seen the street before,Patchett wrote. feb. 8, 2020: I have wanted to writeevery dayfor forever. Then Sooki and I went to the kitchen, mixed our pre-measured packets of mushroom powder in with yogurt, and poisoned ourselves. I had a concrete reason to be careful about the germs I was bringing into the house. Only on weekdays and not on the Fourth of July, because apparently cancer knows to take weekends off and observe federal holidays. She couldnt be alone. When it becomes difficult for Sooki to find a hospital to deliver the clinical trial and chemo she needs, Patchett and VanDevender discover that it can be done at the hospital in their home town, Nashville. Wed stood together in the dark of a Washington theater for a matter of minutes a year and a half earlier. I need to go home, she said, looking at the pictures of herself she had asked me to take with her cell phone. Youre detoxifying all your inner organs.. All the neighborhood dogs began to howl and bark. Sooki Raphael is a TH Assistant at Playtone based in Universal City, California. Yoga and meditation for an hour in the morning was augmented with yoga and meditation for an hour at night. Reading about other peoples hallucinogenic experiences is like listening to other peoples dreams at a dinner party. Sooki was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer, and Patchett's husband Karl is a doctor with some serious hookups, so Patchett arranged for Sooki to come to his For a time, the mother in this novel went to India to work for Mother Teresa. 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For a while she filled in for a friend and was the assistant to a film director, and then another friend introduced her to Tom, who was looking for someone. Entire countries have lost their distinctive smell, The Wests industrial-sized chicken farms could be as dangerous as any wet market. Thought-provoking commentary and opinion on politics, books and the arts. We were about to go on. Hell make sure you get everything you need. It was a science experiment that could never be replicated. She would pour color into my inbox for a while and then be gone again. A transformer must have blown up somewhere close by. She was the New York City Bat Lady at 21. Rene Fleming spent two years in Germany studying voice while she was in her twenties. You all did a book event. ), she developed a deep and lasting friendship with his assistant, Sooki. Had we not talked about the part where he stuck around to oversee our health and safety? She had a double mastectomy and originally got implants with reconstruction. Locked out of your account? I was an introvert again. Ann. He told me he was going to take his grandsons to the river to go boating. There was no other reason for me to be going on the cancer patients journey. Everyone could bring his or her own sandwich and stay safely apart. The three of us were standing, back of the theater in the dark. Shes Catholic. Whenever I came to an intersection I would look to the right, the left, then up and down.. I didnt worry about her embarrassing herself. Its just. We both agreed that if this was the brink of extinction, it was nice to be together. Im not sure I can describe it without it sounding like an extension of the mushrooms, but it had that kind of depth and clarity of message for me. I crawled around her as carefully as I could and collapsed in the hallway. Im still hereat Playtone and in general. New book of essays tells story. She kept saying she wanted to be the one to help me for a change. Tell us. Marriage meant that he would hear out what on the surface may have appeared to be a spectacularly stupid idea. I couldnt. The more literary essays include an introduction to the stories of Eudora Welty (No writer I know of tells the truth of the landscape like Welty); pieces on book covers (I finally knew how to ask for what I wanted I would send my books into the world wearing the best suit of clothes I could find); childrens stories; sitting next to John Updike at a lunch at the American Academy of Arts and Letters; and perhaps my favorite, To the Doghouse, on literary influences. You cant kill yourself because youre afraid of being an inconvenience., Lets wait and talk about it on Sunday. I was also greatly occupied by the bookstore. Okay, he said. You always feel this way on Friday., Thats what Im here for, I said. RELATED: For Actor Val Kilmer & Millions Fighting Cancer, Theres New Evidence Art Helps Reduce Anxiety, Theres no clock on creativity, Wilson wrote on Instagram. No doubt if Tom Hanks and Ann Patchett believe their friend to possess such wonderful qualities, she probably is a saint. I was grateful for both of those things. With many creative endeavors - from clothing to ceramics to a long career in the film industry Raphael has contributed to numerous projects, busily attending to the arts through a multiplicity of avenues. Sooki had two young grandchildren in San Diego and made plans to bring them to an event I was doing there, but they didnt show. Farleys mother fought two battles with cancer. But our truest means of communication arrived in the form of old yoga DVDs. One night after wed finished our yoga and meditation, we were lying on our mats, staring up at the ceiling. A tremendous explosion rocked the house, something far beyond thunder. Shes Now Memorialized in Author Ann Patchetts Latest Book; Moving Forward after the Loss of a Loved One to Cancer, Raphael first met Patchett backstage at an event with Hanks in 2017. Sooki had had a toucan in college. I thought some nights my back would snap. Sooki hadnt lost weight but she was losing her ability to project her voice. When she gave us the painting she had done of Sparky on the back of the couch, I felt as if Matisse had painted our dog. Curiosity is the rock upon which fiction is built.". I had a purpose to serve. We would all proceed with our lives except that now we would be together. In the titular essay, Patchett reflects on her serendipitous friendship with Sooki Raphael. I wouldnt be on the same floor of the house.. No one will bother you there. The station happened to be next door to the airport, so everyone picked up their coolers and walked over. On her last night we sat in my office after yoga and I asked her every last question I could think ofwhen did she work on the documentary about George Romero, and when did she marry Ken? I didnt know how the story would end. We can go up and back the same day.. Karl found a giant bright-blue tarp in the garage and Sooki spread it over the floor and table downstairs, setting herself up to paint. The experience of waiting backstage before an event is always the same. And when I was young, the two things that were unbelievably expensive were long-distance phone calls and plane tickets. 2,560 Followers, 85 Following, 25 Posts - See Instagram photos and videos from Sooki Raphael (@sookiraphaelartist) Once a pilot, always a pilot. We tried to be jolly and failed and cried again. There is a bright therapist named Hassan at my assigned machine, always the same, with a sweet attitude. Tell me how you know her again? he asked. Westchester was still a pandemic hot spot and there could be no congregating, even outside. I stood there, close, willing myself not to fill in her sentences. Ive never seen a storm come up so fast. He leaned forward over the porch stairs. Then she went downstairs and went back to sleep. Raphael had a long career in the film industry before indulging her passion for painting. But of course the thing to do would be to go, wouldnt it? I didnt want to get stuck in Auckland, but if flights were canceled and I was stranded in Tulsa, Karl could always come and get me. I told her, of course, that she would stay with us. We did a different hour-long class every morning, identifying our favorites, ordering more DVDs. We repeated these facts, we made them a mantra. Do you want to come downstairs? she asked. In the press release for the exhibition, ROSEGALLERY said her works used her colorful palette as an expression of a renewal of spirit and life as she healed alongside the scorched landscape of the Malibu and Topanga hills.. I need to find a Belvedere martini.. They reviewed her records together. It seemed to be key to the way humans were shaped, and I was aware that this was going on for others around you. They would stop each way to refuel in West Virginia. Id seen her work in action. And it's such a funny thing. But a few months later, I got an email from Tom Hanks early in the morning. Id written a childrens book and was about to go on tour. . She had wanted to study painting in college but it all came too easilythe color, the form, the techniqueshe didnt have to work for any of it. The days went on and I could feel Sooki slipping, hounded by her own indecision. Whether she was trying to hold on to her own sense of privacy or what she perceived to be our privacy, I didnt know. Copyright 2023 SurvivorNet, Inc. All Rights Reserved. may 21, 2019: Thank you for your concern about my medical procedure. No empty spiritual space. Our newsletter vital information, hope, and healing, delivered weekly. But now shes memorialized in author Ann Patchetts latest book. When was she first diagnosed with pancreatic cancer? The problem wasnt how the trip would be organized, but what it meantpandemic, cancer, ninety-four. And that was so sweet, but what it meant was I couldn't go home for Thanksgiving. But thanks to Sooki, there was enough quiet in my house, in my own mind, that I could hear the river running underground, and I wasnt afraid. Precision seemed like a good decision here. I was the one who talked you out of the fifty pounds of dry ice.. I should have planned better, she said. My artwork is very reflective of my cancer journey, Cuozzo says. Paintings by Sooki Raphael. I had to turn myself away from the movie of what I thought was happening, the movie I had made for myself, so that I could see her. Im just wondering if you got in the habit of not talking about yourself because of the work you do. I told her about a friend of mine who worked as an assistant for a hedge-fund manager in New York, and how she parked every piece of herself at the door when she went to work in the morning. The thought of Tom Hanks benefiting from my assistance struck me as funny, and then I forgot about it. Its supposed to keep your hair from falling out, she said. Sooki told me about evacuating for wildfires in the canyon where they lived in Los Angeles, a year and a half earlier, the night before she was scheduled to fly to North Carolina to have surgery. The sky had turned a tenacious gray, the rain sheeting sideways. This storywhich begins and beginsstarts again here. I could already see her tumbling down the street. The world asks us to engage, and for the most part we can, but given the choice wed rather stay home. I didnt know how old she was, I couldnt remember her face, but there have been few moments in my life when I have felt so certain: I was supposed to help. We would meet on the level playing field of affectionate strangers. We said our goodbyes and Adrian and I walked downtown to see what had happened. Maybe it had something to do with her job. Theyd fallen on the mailboxes. I never cry, and yet I had plans to do nothing else for the rest of the day and maybe the rest of the week. We were ready. So the trial was supposed to start at UCLA a couple of weeks later. And then I found out that she had had pancreatic cancer, that she had had a Whipple, that she had gone through chemo and radiation, that she had been pronounced cancer free, that her cancer came back. You can just concentrate on yourself., She shook her head. Im self-conscious about being in the way, especially if Im not at my best through chemo. Id love to do your audio book! Heres a universal truth: people are interested in helping Tom Hanks. And this led to you meeting Sooki. All resources were now directed at a disease that was not the disease Sooki had. Kate DiCamillo is coming later on Wednesday. The spring was cold and wet and endlessly beautiful because of it. We waited. But for you, there was also a vapor that would come in and fill in any gap that was left in the process, and I realized, Oh, this is what is special here and so essentially Ann. There was a completeness. We talked and then we didnt. Forgot your password? Shed been a location scout, made wedding cakes, started a childrens clothing company, taught ceramics. Karl and Sooki came in the back door together in the middle of a conversation. Ken will like it here, too. When we got home from our walk, I emailed Sooki and said that if she wanted Karl to check on the possibility of a trial in Nashville she should send her medical records. On this summer night in 2017, I picked up a collection called Uncommon Type, by Tom Hanks. Later, she asked him if hed be willing to record the audiobook of her latest novel, The Dutch House. When he agreed, she began a protracted email exchange with Raphael to work out the details. I came and watched from the open door. Our lives ran the way they always did, only with the addition of a quiet person who did her best to take up as little space and be as helpful as possible. How do you fly from Nashville to New York in a single-engine plane for a two-hour visit? I was grateful. Sister Nena shook her head. The phone had been turned in to airport security. These are the precious days of the title. Now that things were going right I felt the jolt of just exactly how wrong they could have been. She was supposed to lug this cooler with her to the hospital every week. I had gotten up in the dark to make stacks of sandwiches. But she could. And the trial at UCLA was canceled because that's what COVID did. That at home she felt responsible for overseeing every aspect of her treatment, researching cures, double-checking medical ordersshe had caught a few harrowing errors along the way, near missesbut here she knew that Dr.Bendell and Karl always had their eyes on her. He wasnt listening. we asked. Ill get there but its no small task to try and sum this up.). The caps had to be switched out every twenty-five minutes during treatment to ensure that her head stayed more or less frozen. We were sitting at the bar at California Pizza Kitchen at four oclock in the afternoon. As I was agreeing, there she was again. I want to meet Tom Hanks, she said. Which she did. And there I was, going nowhere. Then, we ended up staying in touch very lightly - you know, an email every month or two. While other people were left to worry about a virus that may or may not have been coming for them, I worried about Sooki. My friends who had tried it all had positive experiences, new books extolled the virtues of seeing the beauty and connectivity of all life, and there was a chance that this experience, coming so far out of left field, might be just the thing Sooki needed. Her true work, which had lingered for so many years in her imagination, emerged fully formed, because even if she hadnt been painting, she saw the world as a painter, not in terms of language and story but of color and shape. She told me that over the course of her life, each time she went back to Germany she found her fluency had mysteriously improved, as if the language had continued to work its way into her brain regardless of whether she was speaking it. The bookstore was closed to the public, but we were still shipping orders. I didnt say, This thing you live with every minute, this heaving horses skull, I held it for you today so that you could talk it out with the people who love you. Why shouldnt I read one? Doug Wendt also lost a loved one to cancer. She learned to solo an airplane before she learned to drive. I went upstairs to get the scissors out of my sewing basket. We were still at the beginning then. In a previous interview with SurvivorNet,Dr. Anirban Maitra, the co-leader of the Pancreatic Cancer Moon Shot at MD Anderson Cancer Center, explains what he typically sees when patients develop this disease. Most mornings, Sooki set out in the darkness to walk the two miles to a power-yoga class that started at six-thirty, despite the presence of my car keys on the kitchen counter and explicit instructions to drive. All the messages were about Tom and Rita. You had it here all this time? The coat wasnt the way I had remembered it. So every time I am writing a novel, once I get about a third of the way into it and I really know what I'm doing and I love my characters, I start to think, well, what happens if I get hit by a car? RoseGallery is pleased to present These Precious Days, a solo exhibition of paintings by Sooki Raphael, on view from 10 April until 10 May, 2021. I cant sleep through it.. 2023 USA TODAY, a division of Gannett Satellite Information Network, LLC. I asked him how he would feel about my extending an invitation to stay. I rose as I pressed against the floor. Sitting there in her shaggy pink rock-star coat, Sooki told me how much shed come to hate the cold. We kept a common grocery list on the kitchen counter. RELATED: If Youre A First Degree Relative of Someone With Pancreatic Cancer, Screening and Surveillance Could Save Your Life; Heres Why, Because the pancreas is inside the abdomen often doesnt have symptoms that would tell you that something is wrong with your pancreas, he says. I find a stream and follow it, the stream dries up, and Im left to look for moss on the sides of trees. He didnt know her, and I didnt exactly know her either. And you will be surprised by how comforting it is to be very sick with an actual doctor upstairs. . I was sorry for what Id done to him, by which I meant poisoning myself. Get as many nuns on this as possible. Seventy percent of participants rated it among the most personally meaningful and spiritually significant experiences of their lives. He rolled his eyes, but he kept reading. He would bring a copilot to split up the hours. There she was in the doorway, outlined in neon tubing. I no longer needed the protection. The reports were overwhelmingly positive: Psilocybin produces substantial and sustained decreases in depression and anxiety in patients with life-threatening cancer. These Precious Days is still on view at the gallery until May 10. Would you feel better about it if I did it with you?, She looked at me. The wind was coming down the street like a train. She made wedding cakes that tasted as good as they looked. Our hearts have been filled with the comfort his films have given us, and that, coupled with the fact that hes a nice man, made it easy to line up a group of booksellers who were eager to pitch in. The months shed lost not being in chemo while they struggled to locate the new tumor had put her perilously behind. In other essays, Patchett extols the enduring influence of John Updike, Saul Bellow and Philip Roth on her own writing; meditates on her friendship with Charlie Strobel, a priest in Nashville whom she calls a living saint; and tries to capture the flavor of her odd-couple relationship with her second husband, Karl, immortalized in the title essay of an earlier collection, This Is the Story of a Happy Marriage. 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